The Decade is Over

THE DECADE IS OVER

To all the people that doubted me
To all the girls I’ve loved
To all the friends I’ve made
To all the people that loved me
To all the people that hurt me
To all the people that stayed
To all the people that left

THANK YOU. Thank you for making this decade amazing.

10 years ago I started unironically calling myself "Darius the Great" and other nicknames. I believed that. Some people thought it was crazy, cringy, annoying, tasteless, and arrogant. Part of me agreed. Then I tried acting like I didn’t want to be like that. I listened to people that doubted if I’ll ever live up to my own hype. I let people bring me down. It was only near the end of the decade when I truly embraced who I really was and who I wanted to be. Someone once told me that happiness comes when you become comfortable with who you are... and today I’m truly happy.

I am Darius the Great. LegenDarius. Almost everything I said I was going to do ten years ago, I did... even the crazy, seemingly impossible ones. I don’t care anymore if this makes people uncomfortable. I don’t care if people are rooting for me to fail because they want to “humble” me or because it makes them feel good about their own life choices. I don’t care if some people don’t think I earned that title yet. I don’t care if it makes people love me or it pleases people too. All I care about is that this is who I truly am, and I am happy with it. You can’t live your life if you are not ‘you’.

The things I missed the boat on last decade, like the law school and indie film stuff... will happen. Everything I’ve started the last decade will thrive. Whether you believe it or not, whether this makes you raise your eyebrow or it makes you smile, it doesn’t matter. It’s not a prediction, it’s a spoiler.

I’ve also come to accept that I am far from perfect. I lied to people. I made promises I couldn’t keep. I left people without saying goodbye. I ruined people. I hurt a lot of people. I pushed people away. I realized it’s too late to change that. I can’t just escape the past and pretend things didn’t happen anymore. I can’t correct the mistakes I’ve made but I can come to terms with that then strive to be better in the future. I need to live with myself. Not for pleasing others, but for me.

There’s always a fresh start. Another chance. Another decade.

This decade wasnt hollow like I thought it was. It is profound and fulfilling. It made me strong, and it helped me find my happiness. The reality today is painful, but there’s a potential to heal. The hope for a brighter future is always something to smile about.

In the end, we are all hungry for love, but the biggest love we can get is the one that comes from ourselves. That is what saves us.

HAPPY NEW DECADE, EVERYONE!


- Darius Guerrero

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