My Dreams Will Come True

1. AppSir Games will become mainstream

2. I will be one of the best lawyers in the PH

3. My fiction & non-fiction books will be bestsellers

4. All my dreams will come true

No more doubts. Time to work hard. Save this post! I'm getting back on my feet and going straight to the top!

I know being the sole provider for my mom and brother while working to put myself through law school won't be easy, but I will find a way.

I know I might fail several more times in my journey, but I won't take no for an answer.

I know people wanted me to start five or eight years ago. I don't feel like I'm late for the party. I'm glad my peers got to do it first because now I have a better idea of what goes on in there. I'm not starting ASAP, but as soon as I get my family in a more stable place, I will. And, of course, after this pandemic ends. It's finally on the to-do list. 

To be honest, becoming a lawyer isn't really my biggest dream. To me, it's no bigger than my other dreams. I wanted to do other things before I devote five or more stressful and lonely years to studying law. I wanted to prove myself creatively first, and I got to do that on a worldwide stage with several awards under my belt. I also got to fulfill my dream of meeting thousands of people, and the experience made me a more well-rounded person.

Then, life humbled me. I've been horribly depressed since 2019. 80% of my time spent staring at the ceiling while my chest hurts. It's horrible. I never felt that before. Today is the first time I genuinely feel that I'm ready to take myself to the next level.

Enough with idling around and being lazy. Enough with dwelling on the thoughts that make me sad.  I've wasted enough time. I don't want to be a disappointment to myself anymore. My comeback is long overdue.

My depression has taught me I am not special. I am not invulnerable and unstoppable. I'm fragile. I get sad. I feel loss and regret. Being vulnerable taught me I have to work hard to earn everything I want. It also made me realize I am not pursuing my dreams for anyone else. I am not doing this to prove doubters wrong. Honestly, I realized I don't really care what people think. All I care about are my goals and dreams. I deserve to have my dreams come true. It's time I pursue them again. This is what I want.

I don't want to be known as "The Great" anymore. I'm not. That's not me. There are many people out there that are smarter and better than me. I want to be known as the guy that got everything he wanted in life because he worked hard and never gave up.

One day I'll finally say, "I did it!"

- Darius Guerrero

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